memories.never changes.especially 06A3.

2010-03-27T00:00:00.000+08:00

closing this chapter.
used this for many years.
shall let this remain.
but i shall..

move to another journal.
so long. (:

2010-03-21T00:35:00.002+08:00

need a little outlet here.
work is still in piles but i decided i shall type a little.

ahhh.
looking back at the past posts, realised ive changed much.
miss that naive and innocent side of myself,
but yet, dont think i ever want to go back there.
cause ppl mature for a reason.

lots of twirls and swirls.
wonder how did things change.
amazing?

cant wait for the break to come.

without good sisters in life, i really wonder how i survived.
really feel loved.
thank you all.
thank you Jesus.

You are the one.

2010-03-08T22:38:00.000+08:00

i really feel exhausted.
pls.

2010-02-11T10:55:00.002+08:00

John 1:4- "In Him was life, and the life was the Light of men."

2010-01-14T23:34:00.002+08:00

someone whom i have not talked to for about a year plus talked to me.
and she said.
" i think you have really matured a lot.
and i guess circumstances have caused you to matured."
she meant it in the good sense.
but it also meant that 2009,
i really went through many many things.

things that really broke me.
a lot.
but i could see the grace of God's hands extended.
and everytime i wanted to give in or give up or run away,
He gently holds my hand and says,
"i will nvr let you go"

looking back at 2009,
i realise i didnt manage to accomplish much.
but it was a year of straightening things,
much pain,
much grace
and much growth.

growth in maturity,
the way i handle things.

and though im at the valley,
and i wish to rot in there (hahaha)
but i know 2010 is not for me to do so.
the vision birth, the urgency and the things to do.
i realise i have much weight on this frail shoulders of mine.
but thank God,
He is gg to carry it with me.
if not, i will literally D.I.E >.<

so wendygoh.
reminder for self.
dont look back.
seal this up.
move.
and RUN WITH GOD. (:

2010-01-07T13:45:00.002+08:00

2010's first post.

i will be stronger. =)
and im gg to be.
Lord, You will walk through this year with me.

the girls im so thankful for in my life.

adilia wong jia huai xiao fa.
sherlin kwan.
lorraine neo.
janet thanggggg.
anita selvam.
rachel simmmy.
michelle ho.
blaudiaaa.
seraphine changgg.
grace huan.

2009-12-31T13:37:00.002+08:00

i wanted to search for a christian poem to encourage my dearest sis.
but i looked through and thought its better to write my own.
though it may not even sound like a poem.
i think its better.

to sherlin guan xue li:

Many ppl says that God brings lovers about,
but i say God's greatest gift is not to the lovers only,
but to sisters.

He gave me a precious gift.
her name is sherlin kwan.
a greatest gift is a sister.
because she hugs you,
she cries with you,
she encourages you,
and she gives you the strength to go on by presenting God to you.
she gives you her best even when she is at her lousiest.
a sister is one who treasures you even when the whole world says you are lousy.
a sister is one who waits patiently,
she nvr hurries you to speak,
allows you to be yourself,
carries you up in prayers,
and loves you for who you are.
i believe i have found my sister.
and she is most valuable to me,
even when the world says to her she is nothing.
i believe our Maker had many reasons and wonderful plans for my wonderful sister's creation
but i know that one of the reason that God ever created her,
was because He knew i need a sister like her.

a sister is God's best gift.
so sherlin, you are the best gift.

thank God for you.
there is no one else like you.
you are special.

2009-12-30T13:47:00.002+08:00

im in that painful process,
where i wish to sleep
and let the world move on without me.
and i always escape from the very mountain or obstacle that is placed before me.

the way i escape, is none other than bury and force myself to slp.
but yet,
God has His way of making me face the problem.
and that is to do it with Him.
when He is around and when He helps me to fix my eyes on Him,
suddenly the load is not as painful anymore,
not as heavy anymore.
i dont feel that numb anymore.
and i dont waste life running away anymore.

i know that He has a purpose for every trial He makes me go through.
Heb 12:11

i wouldnt say that joy is the absence of pain and sorrow.
but i would say that even in the midst of pain and sorrow,
He grants us the strength to be joyful.
(:

2009-12-27T00:00:00.001+08:00

when a painful decision is made,
all i can say is,
im glad i could still honour You.

to be less selfish,
is not what my flesh desires.
and it can be so painful. beyond words.
but i know.
i will see the bigger picture.
and it will be beautiful.

2009-12-22T16:50:00.002+08:00

these few days.
i have been thinking.
mostly, comparing.
feeling lousy when i see how everything ppl does,
is always really better than me.
but then, the whole thing about comparing is that
i have missed the whole point about being who i am.

the thing about humans is that,
we are all small.
we all have our strengths and talents.
and the thing about comparing really has no point at all.

because it is God that is great in us.
and since the Holy Spirit is living in us.
all of us are good in His sight.
and the parts that we lack, was meant for Him to fill up.
i dont wish to focus my eyes on the talents and beauty that i dont have.
but rather, i want to focus on being who God intends for me to be.

i rather be contented.
so God, i thank You for this realization that You made me this way.
i love the way i am made.
i love the imperfections and the lack.
not to live in self denial,
or to refuse to change.
but to allow You like a surgeon,
to come and operate.
to remove the ugly parts and to focus on Your plans.
God, i know im not perfect,
but You alone will make it up.
i thank You that You chose me.
and there shouldnt be more to ask for already.

2009-12-20T23:32:00.002+08:00

i have so much going through my head now.
but its just so difficult to type things out.
but i still love to let my fingers run through my keyboard.
i guess media fast made me quite immune to tv and comp.
but the thing is, im still addicted to sleep heeee.

yeppp. but no more slothfulness for me.
im still learning this lesson bit by bit and day by day.

and im learning this word: trust.
its really not easy at times.
but even if im learning to trust God in greater ways,
im also learning to trust you. [if you know who you are. =) ]
and perfect love casts out all fear.
i know this verse will see me through this period.
God,
i am learning.
lead me and guide me.
i will follow You.

2009-12-18T11:33:00.002+08:00

this period of time has been long and hard for me.
when you have to keep learning what is sacrifice and giving back to Almighty God, its not easy.
but yet, if you dont,
you will find that life has absolutely no meaning and that life is practically dead.
i wanna say, surrender is the hardest thing to do, but yet has the most beautiful result.

but the most beautiful thing of all,
is that the Lord will never allow you to go through this process of surrender,
without saying, "I am with you."
because He is Emmanuel.
and thats why He can always be trusted, He is always dependable.

there have been much confirmations
but faced with the harsh reality, i dont know how things are gg to work.
looking at my weaknesses, i ask how can You use me?

but the one thing i have to do,
is forgo my own feelings,
forgo this heart of doubts and fears.
and plunge into the supernatural and say..
God, i trust You.

the dreams You have given.
the love that You gave.
the heart that I have for the ppl of the nations.

God, You who planted ears, You heard.
You who planted the eyes, You see.
and You gave me this whole being to know how much im gg through at this point.

But God, through it all.
You know.
and Lord, once again i surrender all to You.

Just as my favourite lyrics goes..
"I am nothing without You"
let me learn to keep going with You dearest Father.

2009-10-09T17:27:00.000+08:00

i seriously think my no.1 hangout besides church and home is
POPULAR.
gosh, i frequent there so much.
hahaha.
hmmm feeling better when God is at the helm of things.
and honestly,
janet. thanks alot alot alot alot.

(:

celebrated bro's birthday.
quite an okay one.
had a crazy time laughing with my brothers.
came up with a game where they had to complete chi poem lines.
absolutely fun.

(:

dear God,
these tests i seem to fail again.
but i wont quit trying.
to be who you want to be...
not by might, not by power,
but by Your Spirit. (:

2009-10-08T00:11:00.001+08:00

sometimes, i would think...
no matter how much i do,
ppl dont really seem to appreciate.
its always what their other frens do that are more touching.
that are better.
that are more close to their hearts.
no matter how many times i have been there for them..

and its kinda heart breaking.
but i know,
i am not gonna let myself wallow in this.

as long as my Father in heaven knows,
that im doing it with all my heart.
im loving these ppl genuinely.
and even if they dont appreciate me.

i have a Father who does.
and He knows.
and He cares.
and He loves.

to not love is nvr an option for me.
because He first loved me.
it is what God wants me to do.
and i shall do it. as unto Him.

2009-09-10T20:29:00.000+08:00

ppl that im most most concerned bout now:
janet and sherlin. =)

prayer list:

qi yin
chan
sherlin
janet
lorraine
gab ho
arthur
abi's dad
yijun

and so much more. (:

focus focus.
much more to life than what is gg thru my head.
(: im still happy. thankfully.
God is bigger. (:

2009-09-06T18:44:00.002+08:00

thanks jun. (:
感恩，因世界真的很大，
而我，好渺小。

为了不必要的伤而继续伤心-不值得
=）
但还是会心痛，因为是人。
所以，我也得更坚强。 =）

2009-08-31T00:05:00.001+08:00

心，好像真的掏空了。
好像已经划上句点了，
只是不知道自己，

有留恋吗？

好残忍。

2009-08-17T23:15:00.002+08:00

many busy days,
many sleepless nights.
much pain. but i know, its to lead me to a new level.

wendygoh.press on.
please.just rest in the Lord.
dont let your emotions overtake.
because He is so good to me.
i know, i will overcome.
no excuses wendygoh.

2009-08-08T02:48:00.000+08:00

wish to be able to update more.
national day was great.
time spent with kids were AWESOME.
after tt, joined the teachers for a good time of softball + capt's ball.
totally awesome.

(:

ended the day with DOHP.
best. (:
but i dread tmr. :/ sighh.

2009-07-13T18:36:00.001+08:00

cherish God.
cherish myself.
cherish the ppl around me.

get past.
go forward.
looking towards the things that are ahead.

im coming Your way.

2009-07-11T09:00:00.000+08:00

school=cute kids=i love them.
(: kinda love my working environment.
except for a little flaws.
workworkwork.

hope i do a good job for my kids.

2009-07-10T00:08:00.001+08:00

happy at the escape.
numb to the present.
a flight to the past.
a lingering in the memories.
the de javu moments.
a tinge of regret to the negligence.
a tinge of bitter and sadness in the silence.

it was slightly awkward
when i stepped in that day.
but after awhile, it felt strangely soothing.

do i actually prefer my life now.
i wonder.

2009-07-06T13:01:00.000+08:00

而你也早已不是你

我的心是一杯调和过的咖啡

2009-06-30T19:17:00.002+08:00

i spent time kneeling before God in prayer.
and it was good.
thankful.

here are a list of thank yous to the beloveds. (:

sis kelly
sis jas
adi
sherlin
qi yin
rach sim
seraphine
chen boon
janet
yongbiao
gab ho
bro richard
cindy
all the plp pastors and frens

thanks for all the love.
i'll be strong,
i'll make it through this rain.

(:

2009-06-28T21:18:00.002+08:00

i guess now my life has a tinge of grey
mixed with black and blue.
i would hope for green, red and vibrant colours
but i guess.

time and God is the factor.

real thankful to those i love.
and that loved me.
maybe you might say,
why art so downcast.
but if u dont know what is gg on,
i suggest u just keep ur words to urself.
i need time.
so if u dont understand. just keep quiet.

there are diff seasons.
and im still learning the word, joy.
it aint easy, but im gg to learn.
so hush to ppl who are ignorant.

but i know the ppl who are genuinely concerned.
all i can say is,

grateful i am.

2009-06-27T00:12:00.000+08:00

i must go through this tormenting side of me again.
when will i win this battle against myself.
i feel like im wrapped in the insanity of my mind,

i need to win.
not by my own strength.
and how do i get the strength to win,

by getting down on my knees.
Jesus, save me from this insanity.

2009-06-26T10:09:00.001+08:00

aballofmess.
controversy.
contradictions.
i want to procrastinate.
but no, i dont.

life.

2009-06-24T12:43:00.002+08:00

seems like the big group is having a lot of fun.
i didnt choose to join
and they didnt choose to invite.
maybe im missing the fun.

but i guess silence will do me some good.
it just shows u clearer,
how much u really mean to ppl.
and when the blinding fun comes,
the word, "forget" comes into play.

ironic.
foolish empty words.
joke.
and thats you.

2009-06-22T23:10:00.002+08:00

a post for my dearest friend.

this is what auntie has to say.
times of testing.
means times of strengthening.
whatever has been said, u aint gonna accept it.
we aint gonna give up without a battle in prayer.
God,
He will intervene.
if we could see how omnipotent He is,
then dont give up hope.

For our Lord NEVER disappoints.

with care and concern,

auntie (:

2009-06-20T22:47:00.002+08:00

握着手中的那杯咖啡
回味着刻苦铭心的回忆
品尝这熟悉的味道

但一切已经变质了...
还可以回到最初的美好吗?
我想答案已是无法改变的事实
就算心里有股莫名的痛

我只能微笑着接受
豪迈地往前走.....
(:

2009-06-06T16:32:00.002+08:00

试探中他要更新你
赐够用恩典

-耶和华的心

2009-06-01T10:40:00.002+08:00

in life, we tend to think about many things.
how we treat ppl, how ppl think of us,
and the list goes on and on.
sometimes, just because of certain things we said or we talk about,
ppl leave impressions of us in their hearts.
good or bad. its hard to erase when they imprint it into their hearts.
even though they say, no i didnt think of you like that now, i know you have changed.
but the fact is, do they really mean what they say?
or their impression just doesnt change even with time?

who am i to most ppl?
i dont really know.
but i definitely hate the word, impressions

2009-05-29T15:50:00.001+08:00

very so often.
i would think about life.
how i treat life, how i treat ppl and so on.
and i must say,
i really have so much more room to improve on.

2009-05-21T18:02:00.002+08:00

i dont know why.
im bad at managing time.
in fact, the stress is getting at me,
but yet, i lay on my bed like a dead as can be pig.

helps!
):
emotional moodswings.
doubts over things.
but these little things nvr could rob the one true joy in me.

and that is my God, He is with me.
and
days have been fun.
i just need to start getting back on my feet....

and

WORK,STUDY.

2009-05-19T23:27:00.004+08:00

extreme pain caused by my body.
extreme exhaustion.
extreme analytical thoughts.
extreme.

but,
im simply contented to be in Your presence Lord.
give me the strength.
thanks for loving me Lord.
because nobody loves me like You do.

rachel sim and adilia wong:
just want to tell the both of you.
im touched.immensely.
thanks for the love you gals have shown.
i treasure every word spoken to me from the both of you.

Jesus, i believe in You and i would go,
to the ends of the earth for You.

2009-05-14T11:46:00.002+08:00

dedicated to a very special "auntie" in my life.

you always cared.
made sure that i am not left behind.
yet i think, most of the times, i have allowed you to be neglected.
im so sorry. you are very precious. VERY.
i know the amount of things u have done for me, no one else could do.
the amount of initiative that u take to connect with me.
im sorry, i know i have been busy with many things.
maybe even taking care of the new girls.
but i havent forgotten you. pls trust me.
i believe that our frenship goes beyond all these obstacles.
maybe i havent have much time with u.
but i do, i do cherish u.

and i know the number of times when u are unhappy or have issues with me.
i used to feel very upset.
but now, i finally understood that our probs arise,
because u care for this frenship alot.
and instead of being sad, im gonna be happy that our frenship is gg thru trials and even testings.
cause this is the only way to get a golden frenship.
one that stands thru thick and thin! =D

there are times when u corrected me,
helped me to see things from other perspectives,
i appear to be super stubborn from the outside,
but i really am actually listening to ur advice.
sometimes i may not show it,
but ur spiritual advice and counsel, i really do listen.
and i need to tell you,
i am listening.
i am still trying to change.
and ur opinions and views, they DO MATTER.

im not a perfect fren.
in fact, kind of a lousy one.
but i will try to be better.
i dont wish to say, "i hope that we will be like before"
but i wish to say, i know we will be better in the future.
just like how the latter rain is always better than the former rain
just like how God's latter glory will always be better than the former glory.
you matter.always.

=)

2009-05-14T10:19:00.001+08:00

so much time
but so many things to do.
and i aint doing anything tt actualli is on my urgent and impt list.
procrastination again -.-

hahahhaa.
okay.i need to get going.
but im not moving.

=)

Lord.help me!!
=D

2009-05-12T11:55:00.002+08:00

somewhere
somehow
i lost it.

2009-05-09T00:39:00.002+08:00

replies.
shiyong: ICHOPYOU if u burst balloons at me again!!
ezekial: and NOOOO. i dont like guys in pink. GROSS.
rach sim: YEAHHHH. you rockzxzxzxz. thats the right explanation heee.
adi: you have been so great and wonderful to me too.HUGSSSSSSSSSSSS. =)

today went to corp office to work.
and this is the funny convo.
background: i have one eye with double eyelids, the other with single eyelid.

joash: eh, wendy, ur the other eye got double eyelid eh!
me: yarhh, this happens when i sleep late.
joash: okay, sleep late more then..
me: -.-

haha.funny.

and charissa seaward gave us ice cream cake from swensens.
though i dont guarantee church office always give food.
but its really a nice environment to be in.
=)

and here i am studying.
tireds. i think will have double eyelids again.
haha.
the blessing in disguise i guess? =)

2009-05-06T10:30:00.003+08:00

days have been great if i dont procrastinate so much
hahaha.

and you, you mean a lot to God and to our net.
please.dont be wilful.
He blessed you with what you have now,
not for u to get caught up with the blessing,
but to rem that He was the one who blessed you.
why do u forget ur Maker?
hais. but nvm, there is no time for sadness,
there is only time for prayer. =)

anw.
back to my holiday outing/priority list.
please tell me quick if u want to go out with me.
cause my days are filled quite fast. (:

- rachiee sim's outing
- adi's sleepover
- nat and fran's sleepover
- coffee with weijian and weilong
- outing with the NIE ppl.
- eating session with the r1 leaders

2009-04-28T11:22:00.000+08:00

pray.
prayer.
never ceasing prayer
lets pray and see things happen.
for our God is a GREAT GOD. =)

2009-04-24T16:28:00.001+08:00

Lord.
You said,
and You will see it to completion.
i just want to be obedient.
fear is not from You.
let Your will be done.

(:

2009-04-24T13:33:00.001+08:00

to ys: ehh. cause when i really happy, i dont blog?
haha. dont worry la. im quite a crazy happy person now.
not like before. just tt, there will always be times when im down. (:
haha.

anyway.
it was a happy day.
23/4/2009
(:

2009-04-11T11:18:00.002+08:00

im kinda amazed.
at the ppl who read this blog.
thought that nobody really knew bout it anymore.
thats why i typed and typed.
haha. not that im afraid that ppl know i have revived this.
but im just amazed.

i cant say exactly that im on the best part of life now.
in fact it may be the other way round? BUT God, His grace is sufficient for me.
no one. no one on earth escapes hard times or times of darkness.
but always know this fact. that He never leaves nor forsakes you.
this is the number one thing that keeps me going.

so no matter what hardship i face,
i just want all of you to know, dont worry for me.
cause what can worry do. rather, pray for me. pray to Jesus.
just like what lorraine did for me.
this is the best gift i can have.
the best solution that i need.

i would really want to thank much ppl here and type in a few encouragement.

GRANDMA- you rock.beyond words can express.

ANITA- to my dearest, most beloved bestest friend. i love you dearly sister.thanks for becoming the friend that can walk me through this lonely path. i know im nvr alone.because God sent you here with me. I thank God for those crazyyyy moments, those tearing moments, those praying moments, even those heated moments. because friendship always have to go through many stages to become strong, just like how faith is. and i want to say this, and that is...friends are friends forever, if the Lord is the Lord of them. im grateful to have a friend like you.

ADILIA- you are one girl that my heart can always pour love unto. really. i dont know why. but i love you and your mum ALOT. and though i cant say we have been through thick and thin, but i know why we are close. haha. and why God placed me here for you.i must say God really dotes on you. cause He sent me through a whole journey to experience what it is like to be in this particular situation, and then send me to help you with it. and i know. we can do it! xD i love you! huggggs. (:

PHINE- you know what? you are really an amazing girl. amazing to the max. sometimes i wonder how you can be so kind and tolerating. but i must say, that its ur gifting in a sense.haha.you always know how to make me laugh, smile. you always know how to correct me with the hard truth in a simple manner. though everytime almost without fail i react strongly to your correction, but u know what? it always makes me reflect the hardest. you know i always do listen to what u say. even if on the spot, i never did take it. thanks for gg through thick and thin with me.you are one person i cant really not have in life. (:

GRACIEE- my disciple.the one i pour alot into.sometimes you know, i can get very hurt by the things you do. but yet everytime when u come to me with those tears or happy things to share, i cant help but put aside all the hurts and the angry moments and participate in those moments of yours.i really want you to grow much more much more. in this lovely walk with God.i will still always be praying for you, loving you as much as i can, being there for you as much as i can, and never giving up on you.

LORRAINE- i believe you will or maybe not. but be shocked at how much i actually do take notice of you.im glad you are strong. keep going. (: thanks for your prayers.i know we have always wanted to be closer friends.but maybe time, is not there for us. but, u are important to me.we dont spend much time together. but i rejoice to see what Almighty God is doing in you.amazing woman of God. jiayou. =)

YIJUN- my closest friend in NIE.thanks for all the times of working hard together.helping me not slp in lectures.giving me good advices.the times of sharing we have.the times of joke and fun.the times of EATING TOGETHER. i owe u your cai pai and you owe me my ji pa. haha. dont forget our yue ding to EAT! =D sometimes.its hard on you to bear with me. i must say, im sorry. sometimes when it comes to work, i feel you dont really listen to what others have to say.but then, i know cause mostly ur opinions and views are good. but sometimes, i really wished, u hear what i have to say. but regardless of all these small little things, our friendship will never be affected. =)

CHENBOON- my bestest sec school friend until now.yeah everyone has a monster in them.but the key to victory is always relying on God. =) know that He cares for you. and that i care for you too. i love you dearest fren. always know that you are precious. dont compare anymore. no one can be as precious as you.you are an individual unique one.

KAHLAI- hey fren. though u are far in aussie, ur heart will always be here with us.though im busy, i wont forget u. i miss u fren. quick come back.me boon liting- waiting for u!

KMJ- the member that is so similar to me it freaks us out.thanks always.a great friend in times of need.what can i say.haha you rock.

LITTLE KENNETH- my bestest little buddy.thanks for being stronger in your walk. you encourage me a lot. keep going. know that auntie is here for you.and i will be behind you making sure you dont fall.and i will be constantly praying for you. =) its my joy to know you and help you.i will always rem ur words of encouragement.

TIMMY LIEW- though u will nvr see this, but i want to thank you for being my best tuition kid.for being a very nice and understanding boy you have been.for being so thoughtful and mature.even if others dont see or dont know that, i know and i can see. cause jiejie wendy will always see the potential in the kid she teaches. so i have alot of faith in you. jiayou! dont fear.for u have what it takes to be a great leader.

ARTHUR PHUA/GABRIEL HO- the two closest ppl to me in reg 3/4.hey u two little boys. know that auntie cares. and that GOD CARES. Both of you are special in His eyes. no matter what u guys are going through, He is there for you.

for the many others i love.
jojo, sis sandra, sis ivy, sis see moi, sis jasmine, sis hwi lan, sis hwee lan, sis kelly, sis yeenfun, becky, bro daniel yap, bro mervyn, bro willie, bro jason, bro ken

candy, jaime sim, rach sim, joanne.CUTES, joanne xu, joanna ang, shamah, abi ho, rach yeo, gloria and many many more i have not named

kk, garfield, harish, jeff, sean, ezekiel, marcus oh, marcus low, shiyong, bryan
and many others i have not named

thanks for everything.

2009-04-06T10:29:00.002+08:00

i've got a monster living inside of me.
and it looks really ugly.

millionthoughtsinmybrains,
what is it now?
what do i want?
wake up.

2009-04-03T00:26:00.002+08:00

im really shocked.
why had you come back..
i wonder how you are like now.
looking at your photos.
you've changed.
and im curious to know the you now.
you seem much happier.

2009-04-01T00:45:00.002+08:00

the exhaustion is overwhelming.
please.
stop expecting.

im really tired.
really.
tts why today i didnt.

what is fake, can nvr be real.
somebody said this. true? i dont know.

2009-03-28T23:12:00.003+08:00

there are still so many things.
bewildered.

im gg through a stage of life,
where i have nvr felt so....................................
i dont even know how to say.
im glad God made me brave.
and JOYFUL. (:

but.
there is still more at hand.
more to think.
more to work on.
more to desire.
more to dream about.
more to look forward.
more.
more.
more.

its good.
its bad.
its. i dont know.

i just know.
i have God.
and if He is all i have, He will be ALL i need.

(: i can smile because Jesus is a true and living God.
and He is the truth.
He is.
if only you say, the simple words- i believe.
you wont regret. (:

2009-03-16T16:41:00.002+08:00

so many things going through my head
so many things, i dont know how to say.
i realized.
i lost life.
i lost me.
i lost living life, at its simplest, at its best.

i get wrapped up in a whirlwind.
and poof.
i dont know where i land now.
things have happened. too fast too quick
i need to breathe.
too much confusion.
should i or should i not?
do i sound too naive?
will it lead to a whole lot of comments?
if..................................then why?
if..................................then why not?
i need an answer, Your answer.
God's answer.
and i will wait till i receive Your answer.
right now, i'll get back to where i left off.
O Lord, make me strong.stronger than before.
=)

as for you.
i bless you.
and you are always someone impt.always.
but right now, fly.

from now on, this is a prayer blog.
whoever has any prayer requests, do make it known on the tag board so that,
i can sincerely, genuinely pray for any of you.
so that you will know,
that my God is true and He can meet your needs.

2009-03-10T21:49:00.002+08:00

today is the day
You have made
i will rejoice and be glad in it.

nomatterwhat
ichoosetoholdyourplansinmyhands
andiwillchoosetoloveyouwithmybest
becauseiloveyouLord.

foryouhavelovedmewithaneverlastinglove.
iwonttradetheworldforYou.
andeventhoughthispainishurting
thiswoundisbleeding
myGod,Youhealmewithyourprecioushands.

2009-02-27T11:11:00.001+08:00

you are the Rock that never fails.
you never change..

now is the time.
watch me grow strong.in the Lord.

2009-02-27T01:42:00.002+08:00

SOP.
goshness. it rockxzxzxzxzxzxzxzx.

=)

it is YOU!
we are in a revival. not waiting for one!

=)

Pastor Steve Williams.
nice, sweet granddaddy figure.
but TOTALLY BLASTED with POWER.
TOTALLY ROCKS.
thanks so much for the lovely words and hug.

2009-02-26T14:50:00.002+08:00

as i was reading ppl's blogs
i realised that ppl really change.
and so much so that i dont seem to know them.

can i not accept reality.
and wish they were still like before?
seriously. i dont know.

confusion.

won the battle against high fever last night!
thank God =)

2009-02-24T23:22:00.001+08:00

you are really.

weird.
andyoufreakmeout.
haha.
well. i still shall try to love u as a child of God. =)

been sick.
not so well.
very sick.

but happy.
God.
is. GOOOD. =)
and i still cherish every single one of my net members.
they really deserve a round of applause!

2009-02-16T23:54:00.000+08:00

Jesus be strong
in my weakness
empower me.

2009-02-15T23:47:00.003+08:00

there are so many things i want to write.
and i really love the feeling of just letting my fingers type and type this little keyboard.
i love the feeling of typing.
i must say, God really has His way of working
He. is incomparable. mighty. awesome.

though i'll nvr understand
though i still wanna cry
though its still a hard process.

but im gonna grow.
deeper.
my God will enable me
cause He is great.
it was nvr about me anyway.
its always about Him.

thats why i have so much more to learn.
souls. i want to see souls coming into the Kingdom.
anyways.

for Vday.
thank u grace for this little ring u made me.
and thank u dearest anita for ur sweet note.
u know what?
the sweetest thing in v day is not bout finding a lover boy and having all those mushy nonsense and fluffy sweet things that the tv paint.

its when u know that thru this life.
though u may have invested in ppl's lives and u dunno whether it mattered or not.
in the end, it really does.

and they just love u and appreciate u despite the mess-ups u made.
despite disappointing them sometimes or losing contact.
they still love u and write or make things for u.
its all that matters.
thank u for u gals.for even appearing in my life.
the gifts of God. they amaze me.
the gifts of God. they are you, you and YOU!

to the semb net.
you know.
other than God, you guys are the greatest pride of my life.
not that i pride myself in any part of the glory of this net, cause all, and i mean ALL glory belongs to God.
BUT. im just so proud of u guys.
see- ing all of you grow.
see-ing ur smiles
hearing ur jokes
hearing the things u learn in lessons
looking at how much u guys are interested in the things of God
and how ur hearts are so tender towards God.

im really proud to be ur net leader.
every single one of u.
touch my heart.
and now. we are gg to LAUNCH OUT!
gogogo! sembawang net.
lets do the things of God and nvr be fearful.
because if God is for us. WHO CAN BE AGAINST US?!?!

2009-02-06T00:07:00.000+08:00

up till the very end,
she didnt give up.
a woman of courage, purpose and strength.

now.
i wanna live like her.
not to fight anything, but this selfish nature of mine.
to be the best for God.
He has been the best to Him.
and now.

i wont give up.

2009-02-04T23:49:00.002+08:00

我想逃.
但那样太懦弱了.

你
要
坚强.

ME AND GRACE ARE UBERRRRRRRR HAPPY!
(:(:(:(:
CONGRATS KMJ!!!!
CJC (:
ALL PRAISE AND HONOUR AND GLORY BE TO GOD.

thanks bro mervyn.
thanks.
thank you Lord.

2009-01-30T00:09:00.003+08:00

加油!

2009-01-29T02:22:00.003+08:00

looking through the shades of life.

距离.....
我不愿
再这样下去

Lord.
i want to hold your hand.
and run this race.
its nvr bout how i feel.
but what i should and must do.
show me your way.your love.and your glory.
i love you my Lord.my God.
the one who bled and died on the cross for me.
even if it was only for me, i know You would still do it all over again.
Your love.
i want to love you back.more than ever.
not just with words.
but with my life.

place your heart inside of mine.

2009-01-28T14:13:00.001+08:00

Roses Say You're Very Affectionate

You are a classic romantic who believes in true love.

You often experience deep emotions and feel warmth toward almost everyone.

You are a bundle of positive feelings and sweetness.

You can are easily hurt, and people should be careful with your heart.

What Do The Flowers You Pick Say About You?

2009-01-28T11:21:00.003+08:00

its either cny is boring. or im just bored.
or else. i just like the feeling of running my fingers across the keypad of my lappy.
i want to blog.
but i dont know what to blog about.

there are so much work to be done.
but i choose to rot.
haiz.
im such a bad steward of my time.
lol.
cannot.
i must continue to do the stuffs that i need to do.
i dont want to procrastinate.
HELPPPPP.

i want to take You seriously.
because You are the only only one.
that took me seriously.
that really walked with me through thick and thin.
when men fails, God never.
and Lord i rem the prayers over me.

this yr.
a yr of increase.
a yr where i step out.
faith.

放手了
值得庆祝的事
因为，你已经不重要了
你和我
真的说的很对
是熟悉的陌生人
不说话也罢。
我终于学会了！（：

2009-01-27T14:16:00.002+08:00

this is new yr with my bestest brother!!
lol taking photos are like the only thing to do when we have nth left to eat or do.
haha. and only my second brother would oblige me. (:
i thank God for such a brother like him.
so sad. chu er then he still has to go back and work. ):

andd...

im still spring cleaning.
LOLS.
im so lazy to do it.

but im gonna do it.
our God is a God of order.
so i must also be disciplined and in order.
(:

2009-01-27T03:19:00.002+08:00

arghz. tonight is a i dunno want to cry or laugh night.
thanks to GIRLGIRL. -.-

it has been a long night.
very thankful i spend meaningful time with God in the afternoon.
thats why i had the strength to last through this night.
thank you Lord. (:

i think in the days to come.
i will blog about certain topics. (:
on certain things i feel that as christians, we should take note of..
when im really free that is.
hahahaha! (:

meanwhile,
i shall just post about life.
i guess life has been really good.
thank God.grace and girlgirl. they all start with G.
LOLLLS. (:
night ppl! (:

2009-01-20T00:05:00.001+08:00

days have been eventful.
good and bad way.
lol saw rach sim's little name quiz.
kinda funny.

haha.rach dont worry.
i have an ultra HUGE crush on you.
LOLLL.

thank God.
that He is always there.
and thank God that grace is alright.
and thank God that girlgirl has been a good girlgirl.

(:

2009-01-16T00:37:00.003+08:00

maybe its because ppl thinks that this blog is dead. thats why i dare to post.

for you.

i donno if i have done anything to aggravate your wound.
your silence i can bear.
your attitude i can take.
but.. how long will this go on.

you said you do not need healing within.
but the fact is.
you do.
why do u treat urself so shabbily.
even if i was not the one u think u want to confide in.
then choose someone else.

dont shut off.
why do u choose this path.
when u hurt, everyone else is hurting with u too.
we dont know whats wrong.
can silence, keeping it within, really solve the matter.

true frens.
accept u for who u are.
bear this load with u together.
they do.
no one will look at u in a diff light.
why do u let statistics define your life.
if u dont learn to trust ppl, how do u trust God.

no matter where u end up in.
ur status as a fren.
it wont change.
and ur status in my life, means much more than u can think or imagine of.
consider my words.

2008-12-05T12:52:00.002+08:00

i just realised.
i really havent updated in a long while.
and this is the 130th post.
hahaha.
well. been thru some tough times, but with God, im still standing in His joy.
thank God. (:

hmmm.
today when i was just sitting in the bus with a kid and his grandma next to me.
this boy started pointing at a random old uncle and shouted, "You naughty boy!"
at this point, the uncle just blurly look away.
and i was almost gg to burst out laughing.
then the grandma smiled at me, so i politely smiled back.
then she turn and told her grandson, "if you dont stop shouting, you go home with this jiejie/sister)
then the boy immediately stared at me. ._.

and this is not the first time that things like that happened.
whenever im in the mrt playing with cute kids, their parents like to use me aka a random passerby to scare their kids or discipline them.
they always say later this sister call police catch you.
MACHIAM I WILL DO IT LIKE THAT. ):

then the kids would be terrified of me instead of playing with me.
its SO NOT FAIR. and parents, pls do not use the random passerbys to scare ur kids.
its SO NOT NICE.
whats so good to invoke fear into ur kids man...
if u want to discipline them, then just be truthful and straightforward.
dont misuse the poor passerbys.
haha.

okay. now im all ready and excited for YOUTH CAMP.
Lord, be my all, be my strength!

2008-10-27T00:02:00.002+08:00

thanks to all who made an effort to do smth for my burfday.
thanks. i will type out all the names in the next post. too tired le.

我忠于我心里的决定。
虽然很痛,但我依然会豪迈的笑，
跨着大步对自己说，你是勇敢的。

我相信总有一天,我真的可以勇敢。
加油！

2008-10-04T13:17:00.001+08:00

everyday is a new day.
thank you Jesus.

and LEEYIJUN!
so PROUD OF YOU!!
u did AH ANG PROUD!
(:

2008-09-19T00:22:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wished that i was more magnanimous.
Lord, expand my heart bigger for ppl.
im giving it all back to you.
i surrender this life all to you God.

this is a post i want to dedicate to my grandma.

and even though at first you didnt want me very much.
but i know i have always wanted you with all my heart.
and as i grow, i know we went thru a lot of tough times adjusting to one another.
i know there were times i made you cried.
and there were times u crushed my heart.

but i know in the end, God held our hearts together.
gave us the chance to be family.
teach me how to learn to be a nicer person thru you.

and now i stand as a child of God, loving and serving Him.
all because you taught me the simple ways.
you taught me faith, to do what He ask.
you taught me faithfulness and obedience to God and this church.
you taught me love. through the hardest way possible.
and now i say grandma, i couldnt have made it thru the difficult times without you.

everytime i needed help, you said nothing but, pray.
everytime i cried in the nite, you hear the silent sobbings, and you cared.
even though the only words of comfort you knew how to say was, dont cry or you will go blind, i know that your heart meant well.

the times when u reminded me to eat well cause you couldnt bear for me to be so skinny.
the times when u made me drink my water and fill my bottle regularly.
the times when u nagged for me to bathe and take care of myself.
grandma, i remember.
and those times they melt my heart.

and now, i know that time with you is going to get shorter.
and times are getting more and more unpredictable.
and im fearful of losing you.

i just want to say the words i find it hard to speak to anyone.
but grandma. i do love you, and i love you a lot.
i really do.
im sometimes so dreadful your birthday is coming.
cause it means another yr added on to you.
it means time is running out.
but i know that God can take better care of you than i do.
He will never make you worried like i do.
and should that time ever come that you need to go,
i will learn to graciously let you go.

2008-09-13T23:24:00.003+08:00

jon pritikin.
he has a story to tell.
a story that really broke my heart to hear.
but at the same time.im so grateful God came and gave him hope.
hope, that no human being could give.
the emptiness that no one could feel.
jaden, be proud of your daddy.

and jaden is one cute little bold gal.
(:

im gonna be happy no matter how many times tears roll down my eyes.
if it means ________, i will.
God, take over.

2008-09-07T14:20:00.002+08:00

i wonder if...

i really knew who you are on the inside.
i wonder if ive been deceived.
so many things i dont understand.
all i want is that you , that looks simple on the outside
which i hopefully try to believe stays the same on the inside.

i wonder.

2008-09-05T02:01:00.002+08:00

when the strong winds blow and the downpour is heavy,
yet i will believe in my God so great.

i have been thinking a lot these few days.
and though i have not spend my sabbath properly..which im sorry Lord.
ive learnt to let God be God in my situations.

when things happen, i dont want to just be blinded by my emotions.
when im angry at things, i want to know how i can make it turn out better.
i want to not only stop at the surface but be one that does the change.
to be an active peacemaker.

and when im sad, i want to draw away from the elements that makes me depressed further,
but look to God and say, You are my portion and you are enough for me.
I want to help myself actively be joyful in God and to learn to let Him help me.

and though ive made many mistakes
though ive run away many times from my problems
though i have been too human in many of my responses, but yet Lord, You never let me go.

thank you Lord.
for you love me and cherish me.

2008-08-29T01:53:00.002+08:00

AHHHHH.
im an IT idiot.i cant stand doing assignments related to that.
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

hmmm.sch work is CRAZY.

family and everything is weighing on my heart too.
why so many probs come at one go.

Lord, save me.

2008-08-07T01:51:00.002+08:00

imissgrandma.

and if you guys dont treasure her.i will.
and if you guys dont love her.i will.
ungrateful ppl.

ah ma..miss calling this whenever i reach home..
pray tt you recuperate faster and after 3 months.
i will have you back at home with me.i promise to take care of you when u recover.
wont let you worry bout me anymore.

and cecilia's off..
to do the great work of God.
i wanna be like her. (:
my dream, my promise...
Lord.i place my dreams in your hands God.
let it be your timing.
i want to GO.but i dont wanna rush things.there's still much more to learn.

sch has started.hectic.crazy.
but Lord.for your glory and honour. (:
make me an instrument of praise.
let my lifestyle honour you.

loving God. - ALL or nothing.

2008-07-21T01:34:00.002+08:00

when words cant express how i feel.
i started drawing.

God. this mixed feelings inside of me.
i cant explain.i donno who to say.

but i know you are my only Listener.
help me.deal with my whole heart and sort me out.

You are the One i want to run after.
teach me how to get on my knees.

2008-07-19T11:38:00.002+08:00

dedicated to a net member..

and though you face a storm..
and you cant fathom the next step to take..
and the questions without answers keep coming up to you..

but yet..know that God is God..

the whole net is behind you.
we know you can grow through this faith.
we have faith in you.

2008-07-19T01:19:00.002+08:00

sch's finally starting..
a little lost but God is gg to see me through..
NO MORE laziness. (:

ANDDDDDDD.
my chi chessmate is gg back to Paris..
study well yea? (:
glad to have known you...
but pls dont get addicted to durians so much..

now who is willing to play chi chess with me? :(

2008-07-14T12:29:00.002+08:00

i DO NOT understand WHY everyone around me is talking about DURIANS.
argh. most DETEST-FUL/DETEST-ABLE thing on earth..
stop telling me its nice.its NOT.

haha.

2008-07-07T12:22:00.002+08:00

for 5 yrs.
ive held on to this huge boulder.
and finally. i've let it go.
im thankful. for all the love ive receive.

too many ppl to thank God for.
now. my prayer is tt i will fix my eyes continuously.
let my discipline be from you.
for godliness is profitable in all things.

im growing in you, and Lord.
see me through.wo ai ni, ye su..

week of prayer and fasting.
here i come...

2008-07-05T00:43:00.003+08:00

im grateful.really i am.
Lord. you make me stand in awe of you.

your wonders.
your goodness.
your grace.
your mercy.
your kindness.

im starting to understand more about the things you want me to change.
help me to be more like you.
because, it pleases you.

there is no greater honour.
than to bow and kneel before your throne.

iftimeturnsback.iwouldstillwishiknewyou.
mixedup.

2008-07-03T01:00:00.001+08:00

not a part of them..
i dont think i ever will be..

nvrtheless.
im strong. (:
i know.

haha.tired.exhausted.
but Lord.refresh me.
best two weeks ever.
such a blessing.

2008-06-30T19:19:00.004+08:00

1) How many children do you want?
2 to 4 children. child birth is painful and the standard of living is high in singapore. (:

2) Where would you go if someone sponsors you an air ticket?
Milan or Portugal.

3) Whats your favourite thing to do?
Spend time with God at night or just chatting with a friend. (:

4) Do you think money can buy happiness?
happiness is not bought.it is created with the right choices you make.

5) If you're given a chance to revive something's back, what would it be?
person x and person y.

6) What did you do an hour back?
watch tv with my mum.

7) What are you afraid to lose?
God.

8) If you win one million, what would you do?
tithe, ask God whats the other amount i should give to mfp and building fund.clear the debts at home.give my parents $$.then spend the rest shopping and eating like a crazy woman.

9) What do you dream of doing in the future?
to be a missionary for God, and if i were to be a mother, i want to be a hardworking mother and a good cook so that my child wont need to suffer.

10) List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
she is a gd listener.
she can go hyper.
she has a nice smile.

11) What makes you happy?
im basically always kinda happy unless smth makes me sad. but spending quality time with frens makes me extra happy.

12) What are you listening to right now?
my bro's gaming sound. -_-

13) If you could have a superpower, what would it be?
be invisible and care for the ppl i want to care for most.

14) Which season do you like?
winter.i like snow.

15) What do you think it is the most important in your life?
God.and my grandma.

16) If it's the end of the world ,what will be your last wish?
for everyone to accept Jesus into their hearts and go to Heaven with me.

17) If you have a chance to choose, would you like to come back in time?
dont think so.

18) What is the ONE thing you want badly NOW?
salvage a friendship.

19) Whom are you close to?
too many? but best of all..phine phine and x.

20) Do you appreciate everything given?
most definitely. all good gifts comes from God.esp all the church bros, sis and youths. (:

2008-06-18T21:18:00.002+08:00

not afraid of being who i am.

i guess i really want to name this post this title.
many times, im so fearful of how ppl would look at me.
what if i expressed myself too much that i become vulnerable in front of others..
what happened if i ever got angry at ppl and they couldnt take it..and they think of me in a diff light from then on..
what happened if i just made a mistake..
what happened if i got a little too depressed and ppl named me 'emo'...
there are too many what ifs...and i guess i dont want to hide myself further.
why must i hide my feelings if im sad.why cant i express myself when im sad..
why should i hide everything inside and then let the devil use this chance to destroy me bit by bit.

i believe everyone has times where they will just want to be themselves.
and now, i dont really want to bother about other's opinions.
even though sometimes its still hard, i still feel condemned by others..
but i know my God has set me free. and i rest assured in it.
even though i have always felt a lonliness that i cant take away
and sometimes it weighs heavily on me when the hustle and bustle of life is over
and when the silence of the night creeps in, i get a bit more affected by the quietness
and when the film of thoughts just rolls out in my mind...
i just thank God that He helped me to discover that this lonliness is only meant for Him to fill.
not tv.friends.family.internet.or anything else in the world.
it is Him that i need.

and i learn to accept myself even more now..
because i know that God made me to have emotions and not to suppress myself
and try to be always happy and everything. i still will feel sad when things happens.

but of course, that is no excuse to dwell in sadness.
because i have an UNFAILING LOVE.
because if we truly are God-followers, we know that His joy remains in good and bad times.
and if we really have a relationship with Him, we know that He is JOY.
and when we come before Him, He sets us free eventually.
sometimes its not easy. but our God is good.

and im embarking on this journey of discovering myself and life bit by bit..
allowing God to help me understand myself and His plans better...
so now. i just want to be myself. be who God wants me to be.
and if there are many ways that i fall short, i know my God will help me to change..

because my God is good.

2008-06-07T09:57:00.007+08:00

CHURCH CAMP 2008 - FRESH PASSION

im back. and im glad. i managed to go.
(: yays. and ya. i love the theme and the wonderful speakers:
Pastor Jerry David and Pastor John Andrews

and my glorious BED BUDDIES, presenting

phinephine!
ABI HO!
charissa LU!

i really had a fun time. but most imptly, God has really rekindled something within me.and i really thank God for His touch. and before i slept last nite. i had this picture in my head.

that God's footprints are really big and as a small child we all are trying to follow those huge footprints, and sometimes we say God, how is it possible to follow through, i cant do it, but then God says: " Im here alongside of you. when you are going to fall, I'll catch you. I'll do what you cannot accomplish. So just do what you can, and I'll do the rest."

John Andrews - " Do not love the work of the Lord until you miss the Lord of the work. " let us rem our first love, the One and Only - Jesus Christ.

2008-05-21T01:56:00.002+08:00

i have been wondering.
why im so haywired recently. haha.
seems like my temper is just b a d
bahhh. sorry to anyone that i offend. unintentionally.

i wonder if anyone ever felt like me before..
i have always wished to capture photos of passerbys that leaves me a feeling of being touched or something interesting...
like a photo of an old couple eating ice cream together, or an old mother with her 30 yrs old daughter holding hands and such...
but in the end, im always not able to do so cause im afraid they will find out and end up scolding me hahaha.

but maybe some day i'll try....
afterall, i guess life is about trying.

and...ive failed you Lord.
i wanna be just like you..
gimme the grace and strength to go on for you..
i need to...
p e r s e v e r e.

2008-05-16T09:05:00.002+08:00

this is a post dedicated to a very special girl in my life..
PHINE PHINE CHANG HUI EN.

just want to say that. you have been very special to me.
although u cant always be there, u always try ur best to be there for me.
you spend great time with me.
you showered lots of ur MOTHERLY love on me.
no spicy food ma...i rem ok! hahaha

you might think u are just a passerby in my life, but u are definitely not.
you make a W O R L D of D I F F E R E N C E in my life.

i love phine phine!
happy burfday dear!

2008-04-26T00:26:00.003+08:00

ok finally i am BLOGGING.
haha.exams are SWEETLY OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
weeeeeeeee!!

im simply estatic!!

:) yays!!

i can finally have FUN FUN FUN!

thanks to everyone who went thru this tough time with me.
THANK YOU!
for those who still has exams out there.
all the best!

commit your plans unto the Lord and you will succeed.
from tml onwards, my life will be full of exciting events.
thank you JESUS! =DDD

and now, im in phinephine's house.
totally in a blissful state.
i love PHINEPHINE. =D

2008-04-17T15:06:00.002+08:00

i have finally found my desire to study.
its you o Lord.

i want to work hard.
im glad i didnt take tt long to wake up
qing xing zhe..
for you Lord. for my teacher.
i dont want to waste my life away.

fired up by your love.
Lord, let me do you proud in my studies..

Colosssions 3:23-24

3:23 Whatever you are doing, work at it with enthusiasm, as to the Lord and not for people, 3:24 because you know that you will receive yourinheritancefrom the Lord as the reward. Servethe Lord Christ.

2008-04-14T10:18:00.002+08:00

when the going gets tough..
im all confused.tired.sick.

i knew if i put in effort, they are achievable, attainable.
but its just that reluctance...that makes me stand rooted to the ground.
desiring a change, desiring the results but not being able to do it.
mere laziness.pleasing myself.

when will i get out of this rut that i land myself in.

2008-03-27T11:34:00.002+08:00

ahh. i have finally changed my blogskin.
love this one....
ok time to seriously reply my tags..

to ANITA. linked u! hihi my dearest.thanks for dropping by!!
to NIGEL. haha u also stay up late.we're quits!
to ABI. my BESTEST LIW classmate.lets be always so CRAZY.haha LOLLERS. and yes! PAP rocks!
to SHAMAH. linked you too! i know i owe u ur bible study! sorrysorry!
to PHINE x2. yes all my work is FOREVER in chi! haha.and i am the mysterious phinex2 in ur blog LOL
to BEN WU. thanks!
to JO. yi qi jia you. =D

lol. im getting back to the basics again.
O Lord. teach me how to be in love with you over and over again.
its not only lifting hands and singing praises. i want a lifestyle.
a lifestyle of worship unto you.
let whatever i do be pleasing unto you O Lord.
bring me anything that brings you glory
even if it may be trials
anything that will help me see you better and bring me closer to you
let this be my prayer.

i really am very glad that God is with me.
giving me strength to face this world.
i love you dad..
thank God for my family too...

i have been having crazy fun with huimin and candice.
haha.sch is one crazy thing.
i simply love CL201 like crazy..but the truth is we will all be splitting upon the arrival of nxt term.
i wonder if im ready to embrace a new beginning lol.

church..
lol. i suddenly realise tt the many ppl around me show silent care for me.although i always see her, we rarely exchange words.RARELY. only hello and wavings of goodbyes.
i shall not name who..
but i realise whenever i need prayer.she will lay her hands on me.pray for me.
i seriously appreciate her alot.it just suddenly struck my mind when i was thinking about stuffs recently.
and also the many brothers and sisters in church. you all have a blessing to me.
and i tell you who says the adults in the church are not as high as the youths.they are equally crazy and fun! hahaha.
lol. pastor paul once said, he who isolates himself is a fool.

and i thank God that even though some times this road seems to be lonely. im hanging in there with the help of these ppl.i really thank God for an amazing journey in Him and with the ppl around me. who says Christians are boring...hahaha.we have more fun than anybody in this world. =D

schedule today. STUDY!!!
God i will study with ur strength.YAYS. =DDD

2008-02-21T20:16:00.000+08:00

i had a good rest today.
but then i have got my schedule of things to work on after today..
YAWNS.

haha. tired but happy.
hope to DIG out more time to spend with God.
SCC really inspires me with his songs. ( no wonder his my fav christian artiste!!)

work:
1 chi compo
1 chi presentation
1 essay review
1 political rally speech ( representing democracy =DD )
1 research report

YAWNS....

T H I N G S F O R W E N D Y T O N O T E. (:

take God seriously.
love Him with an undivided heart.
fear His holy name.
have faith in Him
humble yourself before Him.
love His ppl like He loves you.
forgive others and not take things to heart.
not gossip and be a malicious speaker of words that tear down.
be kind to others.
not be selfish.
be giving and generous.
remember your calling and missions.
PRAY and READ THE WORD. xDDD

L O V E. ( 1st Cor 13)

2008-02-19T20:47:00.000+08:00

i think i can be re-named. haha
from wendy GOH to panda GOH. (:
my eyebags weigh a ton.HAHA

but so far. im happy with my presentations.
(save the fact that i tremble so much. HAHA

work can actually be that much fun
HEEEEEEEEEE.

i love chinese.
and of course............m y BIG GOD! =DDDD

oh ya lemme put up a photo for laughs. tribute to ABIGAIL HO, my bestest LIW classmate! (:

ENJOY! =DD

2008-02-17T23:29:00.000+08:00

pray.

Lord. i just want to pour my heart out to you.
i miss you so much.
miss going on my knees.
to pray and run after you.
to hear your voice...

and be still.

im sorry for the careless words spoken.

silence.
makes a better companion.
=)

2008-02-01T00:17:00.000+08:00

REPLIES.

To seraphine: yays.JOY! (:

To weiqin: yays. Haha. God makes me wanna be brave. Hee

To boonz: BOO!

To Nigel: welcome! Thanks for the compliment.

To abi: its ok! Work hard for chi!

To seraphine and Nigel: haha I just love that song. Try to make it bigger if I can

To rach yeo: me toos!

haha.im HAPPY today cause i finally ate macspicy after 4 - 6 months
LOVELY! and i had the best nap today ever since sch started.GREAT REST.
=) happyday.
and also!!! i had an AWESOME time with GOD. glads. (:
everyday is God's day.and God's day is a happy day.
YAYs.

2008-01-19T23:31:00.000+08:00

GOD is GOD - Steven Curtis Chapman

And the pain falls like a curtain
On the things I once called certain
And I have to say the words I fear the most
I just don’t know

And the questions without answers
Come and paralyze the dancer
So I stand here on the stage afraid to move
Afraid to fall, oh, but fall I must
On this truth that my life has been formed from the dust

God is God and I am not
I can only see a part of the picture He’s painting
God is God and I am man
So I’ll never understand it all
For only God is God

And the sky begins to thunder
And I’m filled with awe and wonder
‘Til the only burning question that remains
Is who am I

Can I form a single mountain
Take the stars in hand and count them
Can I even take a breath without God giving it to me
He is first and last before all that has been
Beyond all that will pass

Oh, how great are the riches of His wisdom and knowledge
How unsearchable for to Him and through
Him and from Him are all things

So let us worship before the throne
Of the One who is worthy of worship alone

indeed my fav singer. what an awesome song sang in reverant awe of the King.

2008-01-17T14:59:00.000+08:00

the memories.they hit hard.
im starting to think of the past much more than ever.
and i can say until now.i have not regret.
if time were to be turn back,i would still want to go through the whole process of _______ ___
(: tears fall, cause i miss those times.
i smile. cause they are all too precious for me to forget.

yiwdnoattoudais - alien language (dont even try to figure it out)
you said open the door.
but i really cant........
ive decided.
that the door will not be opened.

and i will stick to my decision
and smile. because i am gg to be brave.
(:

2008-01-15T15:18:00.000+08:00

after my projects projects projects.
i fell sick. and got an mc.
the best part about beingg sick is always the mc haha.

i got the rest i needed.
thank God.

ever since sch started, i got to go thru something called T R I A L S.
haha. but i have learnt much.
and i know that God's grace has been enough for me to face everyday.
the many lessons He is teaching , i am still learning.

and i am back to the process of a word tt God is teaching me again- J O Y
joy is unique and special.its not as shallow as happiness.
joy stays through good times and bad times.
im learning to understand what Paul says.

1st thess 5:16- rejoice always

he didnt say pls rejoice, would u try to rejoice? but it is a command.
rejoice always.

through good times and bad times, we as christians have God.
and even though its def natural to be sad or angry at times, i pray tt God will help me to see the solution is Him, and there is always a reason to rejoice after the tears or the setbacks.

a precious lesson to learn.
=D joy.

2008-01-06T22:59:00.000+08:00

vision 2008.

God. you are amazing.
you make me stronger.
through every trials i go thru, i know you are there. (:

yr 2008. a fresh new beginning.this is the first time in my life, i am PLANNING for things. haha.
im so not disciplined. but thank God. discipline is the theme tt is set for me to work on.God take control alright? =D this life. is for you.

plan.goals.vision casting.

wendy will work hard for you! =D i love u God.

2007-12-26T09:52:00.000+08:00

project project project.
after all the huzz and buzz, i am to start on it right now.
no more procrastination.
arghhhh.

life.
why am i wasting my time away everyday.
i wanna do meaningful things.
ahhh.

Lord. i need discipline.
help me with it.