[ be true and faithful. ]

Monday, May 15, 2006

how i wish i could undo this knot in my life.

such a dumb dream.
forget it larhs.
u nvr should appear there anw.shoo.

why do i let unhappiness and depression take over so easily.
just like tt.
im getting supersensitive until i feel so irritated by myself.
why.i dont know.
i tot i should let u go.now tt u are having a gd life.
it seems like im nt impt anymore.
is tt the case? why do i feel so.
insignificant.

ahhh.
work is draining.
my heels hurt so bad i cant even walk properly.
rahhh.
tml will be at centrepoint robinsons.
hope it wud be better.
anyway yea thanks son.for tt SMALL.i emphasize SMALL mother's day gift to me.LOL
i didnt get anything for my mum.so unfilial.haiz
nvm.

happy mother's day.
here's to the things i wud nvr be able to say to u mum.
we may argue.but it doesnt mean i dont love u.
i cherish u.just tt u dunno it.
ive nvr said i love u before.cuz i dun ever think i can get tt out of my mouth.
i may be rude sometimes.but i always feel remorseful after tt.
i noe im not a gd daughter.
but i promise u once i get my pay i try to get u smth u like.
we all know tt we arent v close to each other.
cuz we are really v diff.
but above all.i cherish u.

and Father.i wanna ride thru this storm with u.
to be still and know u are sovereign.

i just read tt post.
i wanna say so much.just tt i cant ever express myself.
i controlled my tears
i donnoe how i should feel.im touched i know.
thanks for the effort.in my heart..ur place has nvr changed.believe it a not.
ive nvr blamed u.because i really loved u as a sis.
but i dunno since when have my heart stopped wanting to communicate with anyone else.
even you.
maybe this decision wont cease gg on.
the conversation i had with u.onli made me feel how far apart we are now.

what are frens.
why do i have to struggle thru this dead knot over and over again.
havent i stopped hoping from frens? why am i at it again?
i try to take initiative tho i hate it.but its so not appreciated.
i give up.

(wendy) ♥ 12:24 AM