[ be true and faithful. ]

Friday, September 19, 2008

sometimes i wished that i was more magnanimous.
Lord, expand my heart bigger for ppl.
im giving it all back to you.
i surrender this life all to you God.

this is a post i want to dedicate to my grandma.

and even though at first you didnt want me very much.
but i know i have always wanted you with all my heart.
and as i grow, i know we went thru a lot of tough times adjusting to one another.
i know there were times i made you cried.
and there were times u crushed my heart.

but i know in the end, God held our hearts together.
gave us the chance to be family.
teach me how to learn to be a nicer person thru you.

and now i stand as a child of God, loving and serving Him.
all because you taught me the simple ways.
you taught me faith, to do what He ask.
you taught me faithfulness and obedience to God and this church.
you taught me love. through the hardest way possible.
and now i say grandma, i couldnt have made it thru the difficult times without you.

everytime i needed help, you said nothing but, pray.
everytime i cried in the nite, you hear the silent sobbings, and you cared.
even though the only words of comfort you knew how to say was, dont cry or you will go blind, i know that your heart meant well.

the times when u reminded me to eat well cause you couldnt bear for me to be so skinny.
the times when u made me drink my water and fill my bottle regularly.
the times when u nagged for me to bathe and take care of myself.
grandma, i remember.
and those times they melt my heart.

and now, i know that time with you is going to get shorter.
and times are getting more and more unpredictable.
and im fearful of losing you.

i just want to say the words i find it hard to speak to anyone.
but grandma. i do love you, and i love you a lot.
i really do.
im sometimes so dreadful your birthday is coming.
cause it means another yr added on to you.
it means time is running out.
but i know that God can take better care of you than i do.
He will never make you worried like i do.
and should that time ever come that you need to go,
i will learn to graciously let you go.

(wendy) ♥ 12:22 AM

Saturday, September 13, 2008

jon pritikin.
he has a story to tell.
a story that really broke my heart to hear.
but at the same time.im so grateful God came and gave him hope.
hope, that no human being could give.
the emptiness that no one could feel.
jaden, be proud of your daddy.

and jaden is one cute little bold gal.
(:

im gonna be happy no matter how many times tears roll down my eyes.
if it means ________, i will.
God, take over.

(wendy) ♥ 11:24 PM

Sunday, September 07, 2008

i wonder if...

i really knew who you are on the inside.
i wonder if ive been deceived.
so many things i dont understand.
all i want is that you , that looks simple on the outside
which i hopefully try to believe stays the same on the inside.

i wonder.

(wendy) ♥ 2:20 PM

Friday, September 05, 2008

when the strong winds blow and the downpour is heavy,
yet i will believe in my God so great.

i have been thinking a lot these few days.
and though i have not spend my sabbath properly..which im sorry Lord.
ive learnt to let God be God in my situations.

when things happen, i dont want to just be blinded by my emotions.
when im angry at things, i want to know how i can make it turn out better.
i want to not only stop at the surface but be one that does the change.
to be an active peacemaker.

and when im sad, i want to draw away from the elements that makes me depressed further,
but look to God and say, You are my portion and you are enough for me.
I want to help myself actively be joyful in God and to learn to let Him help me.

and though ive made many mistakes
though ive run away many times from my problems
though i have been too human in many of my responses, but yet Lord, You never let me go.

thank you Lord.
for you love me and cherish me.

(wendy) ♥ 2:01 AM