[ be true and faithful. ]

Thursday, December 31, 2009

i wanted to search for a christian poem to encourage my dearest sis.
but i looked through and thought its better to write my own.
though it may not even sound like a poem.
i think its better.

to sherlin guan xue li:

Many ppl says that God brings lovers about,
but i say God's greatest gift is not to the lovers only,
but to sisters.

He gave me a precious gift.
her name is sherlin kwan.
a greatest gift is a sister.
because she hugs you,
she cries with you,
she encourages you,
and she gives you the strength to go on by presenting God to you.
she gives you her best even when she is at her lousiest.
a sister is one who treasures you even when the whole world says you are lousy.
a sister is one who waits patiently,
she nvr hurries you to speak,
allows you to be yourself,
carries you up in prayers,
and loves you for who you are.
i believe i have found my sister.
and she is most valuable to me,
even when the world says to her she is nothing.
i believe our Maker had many reasons and wonderful plans for my wonderful sister's creation
but i know that one of the reason that God ever created her,
was because He knew i need a sister like her.

a sister is God's best gift.
so sherlin, you are the best gift.

thank God for you.
there is no one else like you.
you are special.

(wendy) ♥ 1:37 PM

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

im in that painful process,
where i wish to sleep
and let the world move on without me.
and i always escape from the very mountain or obstacle that is placed before me.

the way i escape, is none other than bury and force myself to slp.
but yet,
God has His way of making me face the problem.
and that is to do it with Him.
when He is around and when He helps me to fix my eyes on Him,
suddenly the load is not as painful anymore,
not as heavy anymore.
i dont feel that numb anymore.
and i dont waste life running away anymore.

i know that He has a purpose for every trial He makes me go through.
Heb 12:11

i wouldnt say that joy is the absence of pain and sorrow.
but i would say that even in the midst of pain and sorrow,
He grants us the strength to be joyful.
(:

(wendy) ♥ 1:47 PM

Sunday, December 27, 2009

when a painful decision is made,
all i can say is,
im glad i could still honour You.

to be less selfish,
is not what my flesh desires.
and it can be so painful. beyond words.
but i know.
i will see the bigger picture.
and it will be beautiful.

(wendy) ♥ 12:00 AM

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

these few days.
i have been thinking.
mostly, comparing.
feeling lousy when i see how everything ppl does,
is always really better than me.
but then, the whole thing about comparing is that
i have missed the whole point about being who i am.

the thing about humans is that,
we are all small.
we all have our strengths and talents.
and the thing about comparing really has no point at all.

because it is God that is great in us.
and since the Holy Spirit is living in us.
all of us are good in His sight.
and the parts that we lack, was meant for Him to fill up.
i dont wish to focus my eyes on the talents and beauty that i dont have.
but rather, i want to focus on being who God intends for me to be.

i rather be contented.
so God, i thank You for this realization that You made me this way.
i love the way i am made.
i love the imperfections and the lack.
not to live in self denial,
or to refuse to change.
but to allow You like a surgeon,
to come and operate.
to remove the ugly parts and to focus on Your plans.
God, i know im not perfect,
but You alone will make it up.
i thank You that You chose me.
and there shouldnt be more to ask for already.

(wendy) ♥ 4:50 PM

Sunday, December 20, 2009

i have so much going through my head now.
but its just so difficult to type things out.
but i still love to let my fingers run through my keyboard.
i guess media fast made me quite immune to tv and comp.
but the thing is, im still addicted to sleep heeee.

yeppp. but no more slothfulness for me.
im still learning this lesson bit by bit and day by day.

and im learning this word: trust.
its really not easy at times.
but even if im learning to trust God in greater ways,
im also learning to trust you. [if you know who you are. =) ]
and perfect love casts out all fear.
i know this verse will see me through this period.
God,
i am learning.
lead me and guide me.
i will follow You.

(wendy) ♥ 11:32 PM

Friday, December 18, 2009

this period of time has been long and hard for me.
when you have to keep learning what is sacrifice and giving back to Almighty God, its not easy.
but yet, if you dont,
you will find that life has absolutely no meaning and that life is practically dead.
i wanna say, surrender is the hardest thing to do, but yet has the most beautiful result.

but the most beautiful thing of all,
is that the Lord will never allow you to go through this process of surrender,
without saying, "I am with you."
because He is Emmanuel.
and thats why He can always be trusted, He is always dependable.

there have been much confirmations
but faced with the harsh reality, i dont know how things are gg to work.
looking at my weaknesses, i ask how can You use me?

but the one thing i have to do,
is forgo my own feelings,
forgo this heart of doubts and fears.
and plunge into the supernatural and say..
God, i trust You.

the dreams You have given.
the love that You gave.
the heart that I have for the ppl of the nations.

God, You who planted ears, You heard.
You who planted the eyes, You see.
and You gave me this whole being to know how much im gg through at this point.

But God, through it all.
You know.
and Lord, once again i surrender all to You.

Just as my favourite lyrics goes..
"I am nothing without You"
let me learn to keep going with You dearest Father.

(wendy) ♥ 11:33 AM